I Am Sorry, Pa!

I feel so miserable. Those people I cherish most left me. I still have my sisters and my friends, but I feel empty after all the sacrifices I did for my former partner. Also, because of this forbidden relationship, my father finally loses his patience and decided to banish me. He doesn’t want to see me anymore. This is what makes me miserable. I can’t bear that my beloved father gave up on me.

We often fight because of my wrong doings and his disappointments to me. Those misunderstanding happened to be mended as time goes by. But this time, I really felt his anger. I don’t know what to do now. If going away would make him happy, I’ll do it then. But I’ll make sure I will return to ask for his forgiveness. I love my family so much even though we have certain issues. I love them so much.

I hope my parents will forgive me for going away. Thank you for those people who understand and listened to me. I don’t mean to hurt my family. I always intend to help them like what I usually do to other people. It’s just that circumstances forced me to do things that they do not understand. If my father will happen to read this, Pa, I am very sorry. I ask for your forgiveness. I hope time will come that you can forgive me. I love you so much.

GHOST of Your Past Starts to Get Inside of YOU

Hi readers, (if I still have one....hehe)

It's been quite a while since the last time I post my last entry here. I believe that was Mother's day of this year, May 8. Lot of things happened to me in that span of time. Struggles, adventure, drama, and more. Going through all of these is a hard thing to do...yet, so fulfilling. I've learned things that I only knew because I heard it from some people, read it from the book, or saw it on TV. But this time, it is my turn to go with these things. Now, one thing I want to share is the most recent I had in my relationship to my RECENT EX-parter. 

Okay, let me introduce this guy, in order for you to understand why I am sharing this experience. Meet JED, he is a male bisexual who longs for a partner who will love and care for him. JED is among of my "clanmates" in our province. JED is sweet, cute and caring. Though, there are instances that he can't absorb of what I am trying to explain yet he keeps on saying, "I understand what you are trying to say."

JED is seeking for love and loyalty. Knowing JED, he had numerous past relationships that really made him to become doubtful towards his partner. He doesn't even trust his partner fully because of  his experiences in the past. Because of his, our relationship starts to fall apart. We broke up because of failing to fulfill my promise without giving me the chance to make up. Take note, it is my first time to commit such act.

In JED's case, he is among of those people who are afraid to be left alone and be hurt. They fear these things and treat it as their GHOST. They dislike people who turns them down for the first time, leaving them the feeling of being the so aggravated by the offender, regardless if the reason is very simple or not.

If these people keeps on experiencing this things, they become so immune with the cycle and start to become one of those people who turned them down. Victims of this MONSTER (cycle) becomes part of it.

Are you afraid to face the same ghost like what JED is afraid of? Are you aware that you might be one of those who turn other people as part of this cycle? Or if you are the victim, do you think you are starting to become one of them? THINK....

NOTE:

This entry was made, not to expose of my personal hatred to what happened between  me and JED. The purpose of this entry is to enlighten other people and share what I have observed. THANKS.

-KoMhico

Hello from My Guy

Greetings readers,

First of all, I want to welcome you all sa aking munting blog, Komhico's My Guy. Ang blog na ito ay ang magsisilbing repository ng aking pangaraw-araw na damdamin, ideya, at opinyon patungkol sa mga bagay na may kinalaman sa samu't saring issues ng buhay mula sa persepsyon ng isang "Silahis" or "Bisexual."

Ang aking trabaho bilang isang Search Engine Optimization Specialist na nagbigay daan upang maexpose ako sa samu't saring websites at blogs, ang hilig ko sa pagbabasa, at ang pagiging isang aminadong bisexual ang nagbigay daan sa akin upang gawin ang blog na ito.

Hiling ko na sana ay may mapulot kayong aral at ideya sa munting blog kong ito, at nawa'y masiyahan kayo.

Marami pong salamat.


Sincerely,
Mico Laurel (a.k.a Myx)