I feel so miserable. Those people I cherish most left me. I
still have my sisters and my friends, but I feel empty after all the sacrifices
I did for my former partner. Also, because of this forbidden relationship, my father
finally loses his patience and decided to banish me. He doesn’t want to see me
anymore. This is what makes me miserable. I can’t bear that my beloved father
gave up on me.
We often fight because of my wrong doings and his
disappointments to me. Those misunderstanding happened to be mended as time
goes by. But this time, I really felt his anger. I don’t know what to do now.
If going away would make him happy, I’ll do it then. But I’ll make sure I will
return to ask for his forgiveness. I love my family so much even though we have
certain issues. I love them so much.
I hope my parents will forgive me for going away. Thank you
for those people who understand and listened to me. I don’t mean to hurt my
family. I always intend to help them like what I usually do to other people. It’s
just that circumstances forced me to do things that they do not understand. If
my father will happen to read this, Pa, I am very sorry. I ask for your
forgiveness. I hope time will come that you can forgive me. I love you so much.
